Ten Years Later

Wow, it's over ten years later, and I'm back. I didn't realize this page still existed and was getting pageviews. I'm still around. I'm in my 40s now, and I recently decided to start posting here again, at least for a short while, just to see how I feel about it.

I have no recollection of anything I wrote here, and I don't have time to reread any of it, so I'm just going to jump in. Some things have changed, while some things haven't. When you think of a guy in his 40s, you might imagine some kind of middle manager with a wife, two kids, and a house in the suburbs with a white picket fence. Nope, none of that.

I guess the biggest change is that I decided to go back to school. I earned a Masters degree, and now I'm working on a PhD. I'm also working two jobs at the same time, so I'm keeping myself busy. At one of my jobs, I work as a research assistant, and I can say without hesitation that it's the most fun I've had at a job in my life.

In other news, my social life is still nonexistent. I forget how much I divulged here before, but I have Avoidant Personality Disorder. I can't speak for other people who have personality disorders, but for me this disorder has been quite the curse, almost a death sentence. The only way I've been able to keep on living and stay sane is to believe that I was meant to be a hermit.

Today was pretty exhausting. Work and school leave little time for anything else. I find it difficult to believe that anyone can live such a solitary life against their will and be happy about it. Right now, posting on this blog is the only way I have of letting anyone know how my day went, for example, which is something I'm pretty sure most people take for granted. If someone were to go back in time and tell me as a kid that I would be still unmarried in my 40s, and that I would spend most of my life alone up to that point, I would never believe it. Alas, I guess such things happen.