Today was uneventful. I almost always veg out on weekends.

What a difference a day makes

Wow. So you know that female co-worker I've been talking about? Well, let's just say I don't hate her that much anymore. What happened was that I overheard her say something that she thought I wouldn't be able to hear. I don't want to repeat what she said, but it was very, very flattering to me. I guess what she doesn't know is that I need to hear things like that if I'm going to stay friends with someone. But at the same time, I can't make someone say nice things to me. Bottom line -- we're cool.

Today was actually not so bad. I felt refreshed, which is nice. I did do something evil this morning. :) The woman I was talking about yesterday said good morning to me, but I ignored her. I don't know, I just feel this urge to punish her somehow for liking the other dude, but not me. I'll keep doing it, I don't care. Not saying hello to someone isn't a crime.

Down

Today was really awful. Class was fun, but I was emotionally down for the rest of the day. At work, two of my co-workers were pretty darn close to making public displays of affection. It was nauseating. I should explain -- I briefly dated the female co-worker, but she eventually turned me down. No sweat, I'm used to that by now. But my group recently moved to a different office. Long story short, she's openly flirting with a guy in the new office who not only has a girlfriend, but who also is quite literally half her age. Good for her, I suppose. I have no problem with other people flirting. It's good for your health, I hear. What makes it painful for me is that I used to like her, but she obviously behaves much differently when the new guy is around than when I'm around, as if he's some kind of Adonis, and I'm chopped liver. She laughs a lot more and generally seems much happier. The contrast is stark. I am happy for her -- it's just that one day, I wish I could be happy for me.